“There is no telling how many miles you will have to run while chasing a dream.” ~ Author Unknown
When I was 10 I wanted to be Barbra Streisand. I didn’t know who Barbra was, I just knew I wanted to wear a beautiful red dress, sing on a stage, get applause and move people with my voice. My parents couldn’t afford voice lessons so I waited for a time when I could make my own dreams come true. My dreams were shattered when, at 18, I became unexpectedly pregnant and had to shift all my priorities into learning how to take care of myself and a family. I grieved the loss of the opportunities and the energy that comes with youth and moved on.
Fast forward to mid-40’s, dreams of performing lying dormant but still calling out in a small weak voice to be heard. I was certainly too old to start going after a recording career or to star on Broadway. And, honestly, I had a nice voice but nothing that would get me on American Idol. I had become a birthday party clown as a way to earn extra income and one day I got inspired to write a 30 minute children’s show including some kids’ classics and a few original songs. I began to perform my show in malls and libraries and found that all the feelings that I had wanted from my original dream were being satisfied entertaining this small audience. The applause I got from pre-schoolers and their moms was as sweet as any I would have gotten on a Broadway stage. Sure, I was singing story time instead of Hammerstein, my red dress had polka dots on it and the stage was only 10’X10’, but I felt loved and appreciated and I know my voice brought them joy. After several years I retired Lolly the Clown with a feeling of satisfaction that I had, indeed, achieved my dream.
I truly believe the Universe gives us many second chances if we keep our eyes and our minds open. What was your dream? What did you want to be, do, have? What was the feeling you wanted to achieve by realizing that dream? What can you do right now to give yourself the same kind of feeling you wanted from your early dreams?
The answer to letting go of the past and manifesting the part of the dream that is available to you now is there in your subconscious mind, waiting to be found.
Warm wishes until the next issue,
By Lynda Malerstein